Google just notified me that I had been away from my blog for a while, and that if I wanted to continue, I had to click a button confirming that I want to maintain my subscription. So this little update is just that :)
I promise to post a bit more in the future, as I have a few things I should have said...a few books I would like to comment upon, and a few poems that need to be posted :)
So, until the busy schedule allows it...
Be well x
Wednesday, August 29, 2018
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
Wide Awake in Royal Albert Hall
It has taken me a while to
collect my thoughts after Friday's amazing concert. On Friday the 13th
of October, 2017, we witnessed pure musical and performance magic in the Royal
Albert Hall. Below will follow not so much a review but more an attempt to describe the emotional journey a concert like this takes its listeners on. Something completely beyond words and description occurs, and this is what I will try to find the words to convey.
The regular readers of my
blog will remember that I have told you about the wonderful Marillion before on
many occasions. Their music has been an inspirational backdrop to my life for
several years. Here we go again.
When the band announced that they were
going to perform in the enigmatic Royal Albert Hall, I just knew I had to get
tickets. That in itself was not an easy task as the tickets sold out
incredibly fast (I have heard that most of the tickets were ripped away in less
than ten minutes, but I could be mistaken here…). But at last, with the help of
a link from Stephanie (Marillion management, thank you x), I managed to get
three tickets (and at that point I didn't care where we were seated, as long as
we got tickets), one for my twelve-year-old son, one for my partner and one for
me. We were going to see Marillion in the Royal Albert Hall!
We travelled from
Leicester, the city of the successful UK Marillion convention this year (the
one I sadly missed because I was in the finishing process of my Master thesis),
to London. We quickly maneuvered towards the iconic venue. The closer we got,
the more Marillion T-shirts and happy faces we saw (and pubs so full that the
Marillion fans were practically pouring out of the doors onto the pavement).
We could even smile to people and get a smile in return…not a usual thing in
London J And there it was…
Royal Albert Hall has
been the epitome stage of musical and cultural expression since 1871. And for that
reason it is not difficult to understand why playing there is considered a
massive honour and a high point in one's career. Marillion definitely deserve
to finally grace this classical venue with the music that, in my opinion, is a
ticket to a better life. I want to keep them to myself, but on the other hand,
the whole world should know the songs as I do...the world WOULD be a better
place, of that I have no doubt.
So, the concert...on
the way in we were given finger lights for audience shenanigans for the song GO! which was one of the things my son
was looking forward to..to be honest, so was I. We found our seats, and felt
the magic descending just by sitting there in the iconic hall, surrounded by
the echo of history. We looked around and could see familiar faces in every
direction, smiling, anticipating what was about to bring us together, the music
and lyrics, and musical and vocal deliveries of world class. Among the 4555
people there, I was first of all ecstatic to
share this experience with the two favourite people in my world, my boyfriend
and my son. Smilingly we looked around, our finger lights ready for later, now
the concert could start.
When Marillion walked on
and started the concert by playing their latest album, FEAR, I was a bit surprised for a second or two. Not that I didn’t
like the fact, but I thought, you are here,
you have so many great, iconic and legendary songs you should be playing instead...but I was about to be educated. I finally understood FEAR (and obviously I know that the
music you have to work to understand often ends up being the music you
appreciate the most. I have listened to FEAR
almost nonstop since I came home). Right there in Royal Albert Hall, I
completely broke down. I see it now! With the help of the beautiful and
sometimes disturbing films showing on the big screen behind the band, the songs
from FEAR took on completely new
meanings, and the lyrics stood out in a way that only a live delivery can
provide.
What I take from
their live version of FEAR is that
the album is an important comment on the society of consumption and
consumerism. Capitalism and Neoliberalism are definitely at the top of any
political decisions made in the world, and these are matters we should and must
address from a cultural perspective. Marillion have never been afraid of
speaking up (for example, their last album, Sounds that can't be Made addressed
the conflict in the Middle East), and FEAR
is no exception. Artists and cultural commentators have been the legislators
of the world through history, and I hope they continue to be. And just maybe their voices will make the moneymakers think...maybe?
But FEAR is not only about the new kings of
the world, it is also about how the life of a touring band really is. The Leavers 1-5, Wake up in Music, The
Remainers, Vapour Trails in the Sky, The Jumble of Days tell the story of
how overwhelming and beautiful, yet bittersweet and heavy the emotional journey
of what life on the road is like. But The
Leavers gets its fantastic finale with the amazing fifth song, One Tonight. It is a profound musical
statement of what it is all really about, why they do what they do, why we love
them so much, we come together in music and we’re
all one tonight. When this pearl of a song came I was left in tears, happy,
cathartic tears, and I really felt as one with the band, the fans, the venue,
it was absolutely sublime. The rest of FEAR took our breaths away, and the anticipation definitely grew for the second part of the concert.
This part started with Seasons End’s The
Space. Now, on stage, were a string quartet, a French horn and a flute. The
proper instruments played live sounds so much better than the sampled sounds
(no offence x). There is a tangible and vibrant authenticity to the way a
violin sounds in the hands of someone who knows how to play it. I grew up in a
family where Mozart and Bach were daily musical backdrops, so I salute
Marillion for putting these brilliant young musicians on stage.
Steve Hogarth
confirmed his position as one of the best singers in the world of progressional
rock today. The last part of The Space
is in a high key where he sings with a full tone (not falsetto), difficult on a
good day. But he completely nailed it. I can only imagine (being a classically
trained singer) how he must have felt doing a song of that difficulty level in
a venue such as Royal Albert Hall. If he was nervous about it, he hid it well,
as his voice was pitch perfect, full toned, and just brilliant.
After a stop by the sun in Afraid of Sunlight, the band continued to play one of the most beautiful and emotional songs in their entire
catalogue, The Great Escape/Falling From
The Moon from their concept album, Brave. We all fell from the moon with the band...and we all rose stronger and wiser.
But it was
soon time for GO! we had to get
our finger lights ready. Easter from Seasons End brought another moment of deep reflection concerning destinies around the world. What would you do, make a stone of your heart...? No, you can't make a stone of your heart when submerged in music the way we were in Royal Albert Hall. We breathed in syncronicity, we were one the whole night.
Then we GO! The light show was spectacular from
the beginning, multicoloured lasers transported the audience to the inside
of a dream, on a cloud, upside down…wide
awake on the edge of the world.
We put our finger
lights on, and started counting. It had to be correct; we were not going to be
premature lighters…one, two, three, four…and then…had I not been singing with all the others at the time, I
would have been left speechless. Even thinking about it now makes the hair on
my entire body stand up. The picture below is from that exact moment (pictures from
Marillion’s page), but the picture, though beautiful, does not give a fair
representation of what it really was like to float on the fluffy clouds of light
and music, to have the soft rhythm of Mosely’s drums beat with the rhythm of our hearts, to have the harmonies of Kelly’s keyboards flow through us like
the blood in our veins, to have the deep notes from Trewavas’ bass touch every
nerve in our body, to have the enigmatic guitar of Rothery help us see into
heaven and then finally Hogarth’s velvet voice guide us safely towards the
dreamy, otherworldly existence where the only thing is now.
GO! was a
tough act to follow, but going to the best album of them all, This Strange Engine, they both
succeeded, and made the roof of the hall lift a few inches with Man of a Thousand Faces. Then a soft
stop at Waiting to Happen from Holidays in Eden, before the final song,
Neverland from Marbles. Neverland is one of those songs they had to play when in Royal Albert Hall. It is, in music and lyrics,
a synopsis of the whole concert, a journey from the hard and sometimes
difficult reality, to the soft and fluffy dreams of a fairytale Neverland. The
epicness of Neverland became a worthy
exit, and when a million golden pieces of confetti rained on those who were close enough, we all agreed wordlessly but with cheers and standing ovation
that it had been one of the most profound musical experiences of our lives. They
reprised One Tonight and then it was
over…
I imagine all the ghosts of
great musicians and performers from the past were sitting on the gallery with
their dangling feet and fluttering wings, letting these hours of heaven on
earth reaffirm their trust in humanity.
My son was, and still is in awe of his first proper rock concert experience, one that I think might be difficult to top...but we will obviously take him to see more Marillion for (hopefully) many years to come. We all had an absolutely amazing time.
Marillion, for years you have been the voice that subliminally
told me to hope when I thought there was none. For years you have been my
inspiration to create and step up my game. For years you have provided me with
courage and comfort to dare to believe in myself. For years I have been lucky
enough to understand and completely love your musical expressions. I am so
grateful I was there with you in one of your biggest moments. I am so grateful
I can tell other people about what was the best concert I have ever attended. I
am, forever, wide awake on the edge… x
Find a better life at http://www.marillion.com/index.htm
Saturday, August 5, 2017
Birthday sonnet for the love of my soul
One split in two, in the void before breath
Seeking the deep magic's union of love
A journey in awe, through life, towards death
Finding the one in the beacon above
The secret revealed in the first soft touch
Electricity when skin touches skin
The closeness they share is never too much
Where only the other half is let in
The love eternal touches time and space
The love eternal's guiding through life's mace
The path all enlightened by sweet love's trace
The sense of belonging shines in the face
Two souls reunited in deep love's kiss
Two become one in eternal love's bliss
Seeking the deep magic's union of love
A journey in awe, through life, towards death
Finding the one in the beacon above
The secret revealed in the first soft touch
Electricity when skin touches skin
The closeness they share is never too much
Where only the other half is let in
The love eternal touches time and space
The love eternal's guiding through life's mace
The path all enlightened by sweet love's trace
The sense of belonging shines in the face
Two souls reunited in deep love's kiss
Two become one in eternal love's bliss
Tuesday, February 14, 2017
My Valentine
You are magnificent.
Your compassion for your fellow man is admirable, and I sometimes wonder how you can look at people in the way you do, with interest and understanding. You admire people for their originality and eccentricity, rather than judge them for their otherness. I have not met anyone capable of this other than you. Other people, both people I know, and people we observe in the world, might believe they are capable of not passing judgement, but really most of us are narrow minded and judgmental, myself included. But not you. I would love to see the world through your eyes, I believe that is a beautiful world that has room for everyone, and definitely a world I love that I'm a part of.
This compassion is also visible in how you treat everything non-human as well. Having observed you carefully catch an insect in your hands and release it outside, is nothing short of heartwarming and amazing.
You are curious. When you find something that is of interest, you research it, learn about it, and are capable of talking about it, passing on what you have learned. I love to listen to your little narratives about both the past, present and future, and I hope you'll always keep this curiosity in your life.
You are gentle. I have never heard you raise your voice and get carried away by negative emotions. You are absolutely amazing.
You are funny. Your quiet humour is one of your best qualities. Sometimes when you tell a joke, you tell it with a straight face, and I have to think for a bit. But then it dawns on me that it was a joke, and I realise how funny it was...And I love how your face always is ready to smile.
You are caring. You help me carrying my troubles with me rather than leaving me alone with them. When ever I'm in pain you know, almost before I do, and instead of going away and not deal with it, you wrap your strong arms around me and let me know (almost without saying a word) that everything is going to be OK. And when I get overwhelmed when, for example, writing a master thesis, then you have an ability to calm me down and make me realise that I'm actually doing exactly what I intended to do, working as I should, and figuring things out. You make sure I remember my qualities, and that is one of the most powerful gift you can give to another person.
You are generous. If it wasn't for you, the times we spend together, living in different countries as we do, would not have been as frequent as they are.
You are passionate. I have honestly never felt more loved in my life than I do with you. I hope I show you as much love as you show me, because you deserve all my love for as long as I can breathe.
You are gentle. I have never heard you raise your voice and get carried away by negative emotions. You are absolutely amazing.
You are funny. Your quiet humour is one of your best qualities. Sometimes when you tell a joke, you tell it with a straight face, and I have to think for a bit. But then it dawns on me that it was a joke, and I realise how funny it was...And I love how your face always is ready to smile.
You are caring. You help me carrying my troubles with me rather than leaving me alone with them. When ever I'm in pain you know, almost before I do, and instead of going away and not deal with it, you wrap your strong arms around me and let me know (almost without saying a word) that everything is going to be OK. And when I get overwhelmed when, for example, writing a master thesis, then you have an ability to calm me down and make me realise that I'm actually doing exactly what I intended to do, working as I should, and figuring things out. You make sure I remember my qualities, and that is one of the most powerful gift you can give to another person.
You are generous. If it wasn't for you, the times we spend together, living in different countries as we do, would not have been as frequent as they are.
You are passionate. I have honestly never felt more loved in my life than I do with you. I hope I show you as much love as you show me, because you deserve all my love for as long as I can breathe.
You are magnificent, you are a giant, a titan...you are man as he should be and I love you now, and for as long as our souls can cling on to each other x
Sunday, December 4, 2016
Christmas Sonnet
Dear Trevor
Crowded solitaire, felt lonely for years
Existing in chaos outside of time
Blind eyes in the void, then filling with tears
Softly hear distant Christmas bells chime
Ruined memories of a hollow vow
The wrong kinds of people bound by a ring
Absolution in sadness, in Death's bow
Their souls joined in love and now their hearts sing
Their journeys were testing, traveling far
Two parts of a whole, no longer apart
The universe sent them a Christmas star
The eternal beat of two lovers' hearts
Heartbeat of Christmas is vibrating sound
Their miracle, true love is what they found
Crowded solitaire, felt lonely for years
Existing in chaos outside of time
Blind eyes in the void, then filling with tears
Softly hear distant Christmas bells chime
Ruined memories of a hollow vow
The wrong kinds of people bound by a ring
Absolution in sadness, in Death's bow
Their souls joined in love and now their hearts sing
Their journeys were testing, traveling far
Two parts of a whole, no longer apart
The universe sent them a Christmas star
The eternal beat of two lovers' hearts
Heartbeat of Christmas is vibrating sound
Their miracle, true love is what they found
Wednesday, August 10, 2016
Birthday sonnet
Happy birthday, my amazing man
Effortlessly they turn; universes
In this scale of things we are small
Your love reaches beyond the known blessings
Sublime state of mind where you are my all
Your mind awakened a feeling of pride
The time spent with you is ten times more worth
Our love is so strong it reaches outside
We will never be alone on this earth
The purr of you sleeping, comfort in sound
Erasing the decade of silence pain
Your hand in my hand when strolling around
Adoring the sun, embrasing the rain
Fluffy cirrus clouds floating high above
The soft giggles of our hearts deep in love
Effortlessly they turn; universes
In this scale of things we are small
Your love reaches beyond the known blessings
Sublime state of mind where you are my all
Your mind awakened a feeling of pride
The time spent with you is ten times more worth
Our love is so strong it reaches outside
We will never be alone on this earth
The purr of you sleeping, comfort in sound
Erasing the decade of silence pain
Your hand in my hand when strolling around
Adoring the sun, embrasing the rain
Fluffy cirrus clouds floating high above
The soft giggles of our hearts deep in love
Thursday, March 17, 2016
Two years together
Pendulum of emotions when apart
The motion like a constant rhythmic beat
A level five tornado in its start
Leaving Kansas here, landing in your street
The wands of love in fairies' magic hands
Physical distance vanish with love's kiss
Magic brought us here - passion's hot glance
Bodies bound together - pure, naked bliss
Stepping out of time, dwelling in the now
Feeling every moment tells our story
Cooking, dancing, singing love, that's the how
Victorious in our strong love's glory
Your smile, your looks, your love, I know it's true
Amazing Trevor, know that I love you
The motion like a constant rhythmic beat
A level five tornado in its start
Leaving Kansas here, landing in your street
The wands of love in fairies' magic hands
Physical distance vanish with love's kiss
Magic brought us here - passion's hot glance
Bodies bound together - pure, naked bliss
Stepping out of time, dwelling in the now
Feeling every moment tells our story
Cooking, dancing, singing love, that's the how
Victorious in our strong love's glory
Your smile, your looks, your love, I know it's true
Amazing Trevor, know that I love you
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